Things I have always wanted and still want to do in life?
Simplest desires: Think, solve, create/design, write, read, see
What I want to experience: total conviction, resolve, faith, joy of patience
Clear and Present:
- To have character, that brings displine and faith and patience
- To not lie
- To solve problems with joy
- To contemplate and meditate
- To write with joy
- To read with joy
- To be brave and do it despite the high probability of failure.
My oldest desires
- Understanding (back then, everything was phyiscal and mathematical)
- To be a mathematician who has tasted joy.
- To write in a way that no adjectives may justify.
- To think deeply till I find the thoughts from the fiber of existence
Desires I have now
- Understanding, and what's more, the joy of understanding.
- Since understanding may never happen: The indomitable spirit to understand
- To contemplate in silence and peace
- To not be distracted by short-term gratifications
- To not be distracted by long-term vain desires
- To find the discipline and faith and the courage to risk it all
- To solve problems with joy
- To work on a deep, expansive and contrived project that is unique in human experience